so ... im heartbroken to say the least ... but here is my sister's blog post ... i feel it's appropriate for HER to tell YOU where we are now with my nephew.

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""One of the things Thomas’s oncologist is good at is warning us when we’re about to hit the big stuff. Phrases like, “I have bad news” give our minds time to race to emergency stations and brace for what’s next.

So, I have bad news.

Thomas’s MRI results from last week showed that his tumor is back. It is inoperable. We have discontinued chemotherapy.

We are sad, intermittently, or underlyingly: it's hard to believe this is real when Thomas is riding around on his trike and "talking" on a plastic measuring cup held to his ear. Off the chemo and not experiencing effects of the tumor yet, he's a handful, squeezing the fun out of every moment of the day.

I don’t know exactly how the immediate future will look. There are conversations and meetings to be had, some easier than others. I think the next couple months with him are going to be golden, so we're going to try to focus on that.""

that said... im destroyed. one moment i am fine and then next im hysterical. this is all so surreal, i feel like this is something i'm watching on Oprah or something I would watch on Extreme Home makeover. It's crazy. it's so NOT fair. they have fought so hard... i cant help them. I can try and be strong ... i know... that's what my sister needs. but I want to hold him in my arms and tell him everything is going to be alright... i want to take this pain away for my sister. but i cant. she is loosing her baby, my brother is loosing his son... my family is loosing their 1st grandbaby ... i am loosing my nephew. i am so angry, i am so sad, i am so heartbroken. this is just all too much. I know that thomas will be in a better place, but we wont. we'll still be here without him. we will still be here....

Synopsis provided by ABC:Drowning on Dry Land | Air Date: 02/15/2007

At the disaster scene, other rescue workers find the man with the injured leg at the edge of the dock. He's got Meredith's tag on him, but she's nowhere to be found. Derek assumes she finished with him and moved on.

George lies to the mother whose son is missing that he's found him so that she'll consent to go into surgery. Miranda insists he really find the boy by the time the mother wakes up.

Drowning on dry land Izzy

Izzie is running out of options in dealing with the man who's pinned under a car on the ferry, so she calls the Chief and asks him what to do. He and Mark talk her through drilling holes in the man's skull to relieve cranial pressure. She does such a good job of it that not only does the man survive, the Chief tells her she's officially off probation and invites her in on the surgery.

Alex is busy dealing with the frantic families who are anxious to know the fate of their loved ones who were on the ferry. There's no identification on most of the accident victims in the hospital, so no way of knowing who's who. Alex comes up with an idea: he takes Polaroids of all the patients and posts their photos on the board so their families can identify them.

A man asks Alex if he's seen his pregnant wife and Alex assumes it must be the woman he rescued. But Addison insists he can't be sure until he's checked the morgue. An introspective Addison says that Jane Doe could easily be her, because if she went missing, she'd have no one looking for her. Alex says he would notice if she disappeared.

Drowning on dry land george

George tells Alex he's looked everywhere for the missing boy and Alex suggests one place he hasn't yet looked: The morgue. They go together and there's no small boy but there is a pregnant woman. Alex takes her photo, but first he shows the photo of the woman in surgery to the man in the waiting room. Her face is grossly swollen, so he can't recognize her. But her hair and eyes are the wrong color, so Alex reluctantly shows him the photo of the woman in the morgue. The man collapses in tears and identifies her as his wife.

George checks the O.R. boards and sees that Callie has a 7-year-old boy in surgery. He brings in the photo and asks if it's him, and Callie confirms that it is. He, inappropriate as always, announces he's going to kiss her silly when they get home that night.

Cristina, who's been stuck monitoring Burke's cases and suturing wounds all day, is getting antsy for Meredith to come back so she call tell her about the engagement. She sees all the other interns return from the accident scene, but none of them can tell her where Meredith is.

Derek finds the little girl whom he saw with Meredith earlier and asks her where Meredith is. The girl silently points out into the cold waters.

Derek dives in and comes up with Meredith, who's pale and cold and not breathing. He works on her feverishly in the ambulance until they arrive at the hospital and the Chief orders him out of the room.

All the interns are paged about Meredith's condition and rush to the trauma room where Miranda and the Chief are working on her. Outside, Derek sits on the floor, grief-stricken and Mark sits next to him in wordless support.

Izzie stops a distraught Cristina from going in, telling her she's certain Meredith will survive this. George is more pessimistic, saying "People die." Izzie makes a speech about how she knows people die, but she believes in the good, including believing that Denny is with her always. And she tells George that she thinks his marrying Callie was a huge mistake.

Meredith is severely hypothermic and isn't responding to efforts to revive her. The Chief announces, "We're losing her." Just then we see Meredith sit up and gasp. She's alone in the room, except for the demolition expert who was blown up at the hospital. "Am I dead?" she asks him. But it's someone else who answers. "Damn right you are," says Denny, who's smiling at her.

this is an amazingly powerful post from

the end- from OTP

It is probably the most courageous post I have found on Vox. please read it... listen to the music and read it and feel it...